31 Day Writing Challenge: Day 30 - 'Alone'

Tristan's snoring echoed through my writer's block, making concentration that much more difficult, One AM. I'll stay up a half hour longer then head to bed. I don't feel alone when I'm by myself. Actually, I enjoy it, especially since I married Tristan. I feel more and more alone when I'm with him. I have to find times and ways to be by myself so I can get a break from feeling so alone. Over the past two years since I chose Tristan, I have grown more and more aware of the fact I made a massive mistake. That I married the wrong man. I haven't seen Elliot since my wedding day and I hoped that, over time, my heart would follow my head's lead and choose Tristan. The opposite has happened, my 
head is now siding with my heart, 

Elliot and I may not have been perfect, or had always been easy, but I never once felt alone or lonely when I was with him. I always felt loved, supported and like I had a partner in life. I should be with him. I should have married him, it's what I really wanted. I was just hurt and scared. I was so stubborn, going against my own best interests. But it was too late, I'm married to Tristan. I made my choice and now I'm going to live with it. Leaving wouldn't be fair, Tristan had done nothing wrong. He treated me so well; he was affectionate; tried to make her happy. Nothing had changed, but that was the problem. On paper, we'd look like the perfect, compatible couple but in reality, the feelings between us were...lackluster. At least for me. Tristan didn't deserve this, he deserved someone who loved him completely, someone who didn't wish she was with someone else. He deserved to be with someone who wasn't settling for him. He deserved to be someone's Elliot.