31 Day Writing Challenge: Day 31 - 'Heavy'

Heavy

You ask “is it heavy?”

I say “Some days”

Some days it’s two back packs filled with stones.

One my front, one on my back.

Some days it’s someone in the mirror that I hate.

Some days I forget it’s there…

then I see a reflection.

Some days it’s guilt that I’ve ruined a group photo.

Some days it’s a zip across my mouth

When I want to talk to the subject of a crush.

Some days it’s the voice in my head telling me I’m not lovable

Because of this extra weight that I carry.

Some days it’s the pea in the mattress that stops me from resting comfortably.

Some days it’s the choking regret of every mouthful.

You ask “is it heavy?”

I say “some days.”