31 Day Writing Challenge: Day 13 - 'Unwritten.'

My life is unwritten, my story has not been told. I don't mean that in the hopeful, 'the future is mine for the taking' kind of unwritten. I mean it in the 'I'm lost, someone tell me what the fuck to do' kind of way. My life is like the most complicated piece of build-it-yourself furniture and no one has bothered to give me the damn instructions. 
I am surrounded by people who know what they are doing; where they are going and exactly how they will get there. It's like they have this written plan (or possibly the full story) for their lives downloaded into their brain like there's a Kindle app in there. Seriously, did everyone get a personalised 'This Is Your Life: The Handbook'? And where the hell was I? Asleep? Zoned Out? Oh god, was it while I was invested in a new TV show? Or lost in a book? 

WHERE THE FUCK IS MY DAMN HANDBOOK?!

And to make it worse, my mum keeps looking at me and treating me like I should have it figure out. Is she thinking: 'Hasn't she read her handbook? What is she playing at? Why isn't she following the steps carefully laid out in her handbook?' I don't have the handbook, mother. And I also don't have a bloody clue what they hell I'm doing or going to do or where I'm going. I am honestly the personification of the word 'lost'.

I used to love the idea that my life was unwritten, that I could write it. As a writer, that appealed to me. But as an indecisive person who has lots of 'oh, I'd quite like to do that', half-baked ambition type ideas, the uncertainty isn't working for me. Could a mysterious stranger just hand me a book or folder that contains information on my life. I don't even need, or really want, specifics, just a few bullet points:

• You should go to college/Uni and study....
• Don't worry, you will find your person. You will spend your life with someone. They're worth the wait.
• More importantly, you will be a dog owner -several times over.
• When given the option to ______ this is what you need to do...

Things like that. That's all I need, some basic instructions and reassurances. It's not too much to ask. Especially as the rest of the world seems to already have this.

I'm sick of an unwritten life and the responsibility of being the sole person that has to write it. It's hard enough trying to get me to write a damn fictional novel. 

Someone please, just give me a hint. What should I do? Pursue my writing or go back into education? Work with animals or decide to be an actress? I should not be left to make decisions. Ever. Especially life altering ones. 

My life is flowing by me while I drown in indecision.